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Episode 116: Aging Gracefully with Alexandra Chan and Courtney Daniel

March 8, 2020 All In with Pauline Hawkins For International Women’s Day, Alexandra Chan and Courtney Daniel return to the show to join me in conversation about aging, letting go, nurturing your inner child, self-healing, raising boys, moving on, and saying no. Three songs that we brought to help us talk about our journey: 1stContinue reading “Episode 116: Aging Gracefully with Alexandra Chan and Courtney Daniel”

Episode 115: Moments with Trevor Gatcomb and Aly Aramento

March 1, 2020 All In with Pauline Hawkins Trevor Gatcomb and Aly Aramento join me to talk about their directorial debut with Dive In Productions of the contemporary song cycle Moments, written and composed by Nathan Schwartzberg. They talk about the history of Moments and what it looks like now, the moments that have impactedContinue reading “Episode 115: Moments with Trevor Gatcomb and Aly Aramento”

Episode 113: Fear, Freedom, and Improv with Joanne Brokaw

January 26, 2020 All In with Pauline Hawkins Joanne Brokaw is an award-winning writer, improvisor, and the author of two books: What the Dog Said, and other adventures in everyday life, and most recently, Suddenly Stardust: A memoir (of sorts) about fear, freedom & improv. Despite her list of creative accomplishments, for most of herContinue reading “Episode 113: Fear, Freedom, and Improv with Joanne Brokaw”

Episode 112: The Next Right Thing with Amanda Woods

January 12, 2020 All In with Pauline Hawkins Amanda Woods joins me again to talk about her children’s books: The Robot and the Ballerina and I love You to Planet Peas and Carrots; running the marketing and business end of Wiggly Bridge Distillery; the foundation she is starting with self-publishing; and the work she doesContinue reading “Episode 112: The Next Right Thing with Amanda Woods”

Episode 110: The UNH HUGEmanities with Krista Jackman

December 15, 2019 All In with Pauline Hawkins Krista Jackman is a Principal Lecturer and Co-director of The HUGEmanities Project with the Englsih Department at UNH. I have had the pleasure of working under the HUGEmanities umbrella with Krista and Molly Campbell, as we create more opportunities for UNH and NHCC students to engage inContinue reading “Episode 110: The UNH HUGEmanities with Krista Jackman”

Episode 109: Healing Arts Collective with Adrienne Irizarry and Bri Duga

December 1, 2019 All In with Pauline Hawkins Adrienne Irizarry and Bri Duga from Healing Arts Collective join me to talk about holistic wellness, the interconnected nature of people, how they help people unlock their wellness potential, the meaning behind their logo, and what it means to them to go all in. Three songs thatContinue reading “Episode 109: Healing Arts Collective with Adrienne Irizarry and Bri Duga”

Episode 107: Some Holiday with Justin Scarelli and Melissa Sweatt

November 3, 2019 All In with Pauline Hawkins Justin Scarelli and Melissa Sweatt from Rogue Productions join me to talk about their musical Some Holiday opening at the Players’ Ring November 22 thru December 1. Justin worked for Warner Bros. and Walt Disney Company and Melissa went through the filmmaking program at Boston University andContinue reading “Episode 107: Some Holiday with Justin Scarelli and Melissa Sweatt”

Episode 106: For I Am Yours with Pauline, Carol Linn, and Lorraine

October 20, 2019 All In with Pauline Hawkins Lori McCarthy guest hosts the show, interviewing Pauline Hawkins (the author), Carol Linn Powell (the inspiration), and Lorraine Watry (the illustrator) about the children’s book, For I Am Yours, released on September 25th. It is a beautifully illustrated story about a baby and her blanket and theContinue reading “Episode 106: For I Am Yours with Pauline, Carol Linn, and Lorraine”

Episode 104: Dogfight with Jordan Formichelli and Trevor Gatcomb

September 22, 2019 All In with Pauline Hawkins Jordan Formichelli, the director, and Trevor Gatcomb, the male lead, talk about Dogfight, currently playing at the Player’s Ring in downtown Portsmouth. Dogfight is a musical with music and lyrics by Pasek & Paul, a duo responsible for Dear Evan Hansen, James and the Giant Peach, andContinue reading “Episode 104: Dogfight with Jordan Formichelli and Trevor Gatcomb”

Episode 103: Mystery/Thriller Novels with Darden North

September 8, 2019 All In with Pauline Hawkins Darden North is a mystery and thriller novelist, a presenter for writing conferences, chairman of the board of the Mississippi Public Broadcasting Foundation, on the editorial board of the Journal of the Mississippi Medical Association, and a board-certified ob/gyn. Joining me from Jackson, Mississippi, Darden talks aboutContinue reading “Episode 103: Mystery/Thriller Novels with Darden North”

Episode 102: CBD and Soul Purpose with Nadine Thompson

August 4, 2019 All In with Pauline Hawkins Nadine Thompson has dedicated her life as a social entrepreneur to empowering women and creating innovative entrepreneurial opportunities for people who want to improve the quality of their lives. Nadine has created a number of successful businesses under her brand Soul Purpose and is now working onContinue reading “Episode 102: CBD and Soul Purpose with Nadine Thompson”

Episode 99: The Narcissist’s Wife with Laura Mansfield

July 14, 2019 All In with Pauline Hawkins Laura Mansfield joins me again to talk about her new book The Narcissist’s Wife. This is Laura’s second book. For this episode, we found more common ground and talked about our own experiences with narcissists, how to protect ourselves and our loved ones from becoming enmeshed withContinue reading “Episode 99: The Narcissist’s Wife with Laura Mansfield”

Episode 97: The HUGEmanities with Molly Campbell and Krista Jackman

June 23, 2019 All In with Pauline Hawkins Molly Campbell and Krista Jackman are UNH Lecturers and have started The HUGEmanities Project, a collaboration between The New Hampshire Humanities Collaborative, and UNH College of Liberal Arts. It is an initiative that highlights the engaged, active thinking and digital humanities work UNH students are doing. WeContinue reading “Episode 97: The HUGEmanities with Molly Campbell and Krista Jackman”

Episode 94: Little Shop of Horrors with Jordan Formichelli and Marina Altschiller

May 26, 2019 All In with Pauline Hawkins Jordan Formichelli and Marina Altschiller join me to talk about Little Shop of Horrors (opening May 31 at the Hatbox Theatre in Concord, NH), the show’s origin, producing a big name show as a start-up theatre company (Dive-In Productions), and what it means to them “to goContinue reading “Episode 94: Little Shop of Horrors with Jordan Formichelli and Marina Altschiller”

Episode 93: Sanctuary: A Catalyst for Murder with David Hanrahan

May 19, 2019 All In with Pauline Hawkins David Hanrahan is back for his third appearance. David is a former Boston trial attorney and now the author of three novels. He just released his latest novel, Sanctuary: A Catalyst for Murder. David talks about his new book, a book club in Florida he visited, whenContinue reading “Episode 93: Sanctuary: A Catalyst for Murder with David Hanrahan”

Mother’s Day 2019

May 12, 2019 All In with Pauline Hawkins Being a mother is definitely a role that demands that we go “all in”. I’m thankful for all the mothers in my life who raised me, nurtured me, befriended me, helped me with my children, and offered me their hands to hold, their arms to hug, andContinue reading “Mother’s Day 2019”

Episode 89: Three Pillars of Life with Amanda Woods

March 31, 2019 All In with Pauline Hawkins Amanda Woods is an author and illustrator of children’s books, the vice president of the board for the York Region Chamber of Commerce, on the board for the York Education Foundation, and the “powerhouse” at the Wiggly Bridge Distillery. She was born in Manchester, NH and currentlyContinue reading “Episode 89: Three Pillars of Life with Amanda Woods”

Episode 87: From Concept to Stage Production with Paintbox

March 17, 2019 All In with Pauline Hawkins Jon McCormack (creator), Jordan Formicelli (Annie), and Tomer Oz (director) talk about Paintbox, an origianl rock opera with a twist. Paintbox is currently playing at the Player’s Ring in downtown Portsmouth. The three talk about how Paintbox went from an album to a musical stage production andContinue reading “Episode 87: From Concept to Stage Production with Paintbox”

Episode 86: Middle School Musicals with the Cast of PMS’s Aladdin, Jr.

March 10, 2019 All In with Pauline Hawkins I interviewed the cast of Portsmouth Middle School’s production of Aladdin, Jr., which is opening Monday, March 11 and is running for three nights. All shows start at 7 pm. Maddoc, Nick, Scarlet, and Ian talk about the musical, their favorite parts of the show, and whatContinue reading “Episode 86: Middle School Musicals with the Cast of PMS’s Aladdin, Jr.”

Episode 84: A Memoir of Living with Alzheimer’s with Paula Sarver

February 24, 2019 All In with Pauline Hawkins Paula Sarver is a new author who fell into the publishing world when, after moving her mother into an assisted living center for Alzheimer’s, she discovered her mother’s prayer journal. She turned that journal into An Introspective Journey: A Memoir of Living with Alzheimer’s. Paula joined meContinue reading “Episode 84: A Memoir of Living with Alzheimer’s with Paula Sarver”

Episode 82: Restoring Balance and Empowering Women with Moon Essence

February 10, 2019 All In with Pauline Hawkins Adrienne Irizarry joins me again to talk about a new business she started called Moon Essence. Through her own experiences with vaginal steaming and Chinese medicine, Adrienne’s practice works with women to help restore ease and balance in all stages of life. Adrienne talks about how andContinue reading “Episode 82: Restoring Balance and Empowering Women with Moon Essence”

Episode 81: Lifestyle Medicine with Dr. Love

February 3, 2019 All In with Pauline Hawkins Dr. K.L. Johnson or Dr. Love is a multi-lingual, nationally certified speech-language pathologist, linguist, certified autism specialist, certified public health researcher and certified in the practice of cognitive rehabilitation. She is founder and director of the non-profit, Dr. Love’s Healthcare and Dr. Love’s Integrative Nutrition & LifestyleContinue reading “Episode 81: Lifestyle Medicine with Dr. Love”

Episode 80: The Hero’s Journey with Mike Parker

January 27, 2019 All In with Pauline Hawkins Mike Parker is a stage and film director, playwright, novelist, screenwriter, actor, and the founder of WordCrafts Press. He joined me from Middle Tennessee where he lives with wife, author Paula K. Parker. Mike talks about his journey and how he started his publishing company; marrying hisContinue reading “Episode 80: The Hero’s Journey with Mike Parker”

Episode 78: “The Heroin Effect” with Michael Venn

January 6, 2019 All In with Pauline Hawkins Michael Venn is a director and producer who made his writing and directorial debut in 2010 with the short film “Dark Scribbles”, which premiered in the short film corner at the 2010 Festival De Cannes and was an official selection at film festivals across the country. Michael’sContinue reading “Episode 78: “The Heroin Effect” with Michael Venn”

Episode 77: The Episodes that Helped Me Move Forward on My Journey

December 30, 2018 All In with Pauline Hawkins For the last episode of 2018, I wanted to share excerpts from shows that helped me transform and rebuild after a few years of treading water. All of my guests have helped me in some way; unfortunately, I didn’t have time in an hour long show toContinue reading “Episode 77: The Episodes that Helped Me Move Forward on My Journey”

Episode 76: UNH Non-renewal Update with Cindy Pulkkinen

December 23, 2018 All In with Pauline Hawkins Cindy Pulkkinen was a Principal Lecturer at UNH, and taught English as a Second Language until May 2018, when her contract was not renewed along with 16 other lecturers. Cindy gives us an update on the non-renewal lecturers and talks about the difficulties of getting a full-timeContinue reading “Episode 76: UNH Non-renewal Update with Cindy Pulkkinen”

Episode 74: Color Your World with Lorraine Watry

December 9, 2018 All In with Pauline Hawkins Lorraine Watry is an award-winning Colorado contemporary realist painter of water-scapes, landscapes, and reflective objects. Her art is characterized by bright colors, dramatic light and realistic reflections. I am lucky to have her illustrate my children’s book, You Are Mine, due to be released in the summerContinue reading “Episode 74: Color Your World with Lorraine Watry”

Episode 72: Being a Film Producer with Karlina Lyons

November 25, 2018 All In with Pauline Hawkins Karlina Lyons is a producer with 20 years of experience in domestic and international media production. Her career focus is on educational programming for children and families, most notably with Sesame Street. Recently, Karlina produced The Heroin Effect and Light Attaching to a Girl. Three songs thatContinue reading “Episode 72: Being a Film Producer with Karlina Lyons”

Episode 70: Chiropractic Care and Women’s Health with Dr. Loren Allard

November 11, 2018 All In with Pauline Hawkins Dr. Loren Allard is a chiropractor who specializes in women’s health. Her passionate focus is working with women in pregnancy and postpartum. She talks about creating greater awareness and connection in the body and how chiropractic is the path to sharing her gift of healing with mothersContinue reading “Episode 70: Chiropractic Care and Women’s Health with Dr. Loren Allard”

Episode 69: Mentoring for the Modern Musician with the Scharff Brothers

October 28, 2018 All In with Pauline Hawkins Michael and Adam Scharff or The Scharff Brothers are a production team and pioneers in Virtual Artist Development. They write, record, produce and teach in all musical genres. As a matter of fact, at the time of this recording, they were finishing up a lesson, so IContinue reading “Episode 69: Mentoring for the Modern Musician with the Scharff Brothers”

Episode 68: Instructions on Parting with Amy Jenkins

October 14, 2018 All In with Pauline Hawkins Amy Jenkins was part of the New Hampshire Film Festival 2018 and screened her documentary Instructions On Parting: Over  the  course  of  one  tumultuous  year,  Artist  and  Director  Amy  Jenkins  confronts  the  cancer   diagnoses  of  her  mother,  sister,  and  brother,  and  also  welcomes  her  first  childContinue reading “Episode 68: Instructions on Parting with Amy Jenkins”

Episode 67: Podcasting with Raef Granger and Reid Butler

October 7, 2018 All In with Pauline Hawkins Raef Granger and Reid Butler join my podcast to talk about starting their own businesses. Raef helps entrepreneurs find and follow their passions and protect their businesses. Reid is a financial advisor who provides strategies to families and small businesses. Together they have a podcast called TheContinue reading “Episode 67: Podcasting with Raef Granger and Reid Butler”

Episode 66: Digital Marketing with Sabrina Kizzie

September 30, 2018 All In with Pauline Hawkins Sabrina Kizzie is a nationally recognized consultant, marketing expert, author and motivational speaker. She is currently a professor at the City University of New York’s Baruch College, and the Steven L. Newman Real Estate Institute, where she teaches several courses including social media marketing, interactive marketing, mediaContinue reading “Episode 66: Digital Marketing with Sabrina Kizzie”

Episode 65: Accepting the Challenge with Christina McAlister

September 23, 2018 All In with Pauline Hawkins Christina McAlister is a successful business owner, a dance mom to three beautiful girls, a former mechanic in the Army National Guard, and an educational associate for kindergarten where she puts her recently learned sign-language skills to use. She accepts every challenge that comes her way, withContinue reading “Episode 65: Accepting the Challenge with Christina McAlister”

Episode 64: Laborers, Craftsmen, and Artists with Adam Rivera

September 9, 2018 All In with Pauline Hawkins Adam Rivera is a true renaissance man with accomplishments in many fields: He’s an MMA fighter and trainer, coaching Devin Powell into the UFC; a combat medic; an FBI certified crisis negotiator; and an ordained minister—and that’s just a sampling. Not only does he have a listContinue reading “Episode 64: Laborers, Craftsmen, and Artists with Adam Rivera”

Episode 63: Being a Creative with Alexandra Chan

August 19, 2018 All In with Pauline Hawkins Alexandra Chan has an amazing array of accomplishments under her belt with even more on the horizon. Alexandra Chan Photography was awarded the Best Photographer of 2017 for the Portsmouth region; she has spoken all over the world about her work in archaeology; and she is currentlyContinue reading “Episode 63: Being a Creative with Alexandra Chan”

Episode 61: Fighting with Your Heart with Devin Powell and Jay Mansfield

August 5, 2018 All In with Pauline Hawkins Devin Powell is a UFC fighter and Jay Mansfield has been in Devin’s corner since the day Devin stepped onto the mat. They recently returned from the UFC fight in Calgary where Devin knocked his opponent out in the first round. As Jay says, Devin fights withContinue reading “Episode 61: Fighting with Your Heart with Devin Powell and Jay Mansfield”

Episode 60: Rochester Performing Arts with Scott Severance and Jordan Formicelli

July 29, 2018 All In with Pauline Hawkins Scott Severance and Jordan Formicelli talk about opening the Rochester Performance & Arts Center and summer theatre at the Rochester Opera House with the critically acclaimed production of A Funny Thing Happened on the Way to the Forum. Three songs that would be on the soundtrack ofContinue reading “Episode 60: Rochester Performing Arts with Scott Severance and Jordan Formicelli”

Episode 59: Grow and Rise with Adrienne Irizarry

July 22, 2018 All In with Pauline Hawkins Adrienne owns Leviosa Communication, a small business that partners with other small businesses and non-profits to help them build a fundraising campaign, strengthen their brand or increase their marketing footprint. Adrienne’s business journey begins with nonprofit work, travels into corporate America, and is now helping other businessesContinue reading “Episode 59: Grow and Rise with Adrienne Irizarry”

Episode 58: Overcome Social Anxiety with Carol Bass

July 15, 2018 All In with Pauline Hawkins Carol Bass, founder of Social Dynamix, talks about her unique, interactive style of therapy that combines improvisation, psychodrama, and social pragmatics to help individuals gain confidence and overcome social anxiety. Three songs that would be on the soundtrack of her life: 1st song: “King of Anything” byContinue reading “Episode 58: Overcome Social Anxiety with Carol Bass”

Episode 56: Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat with Corinne Tork, Ryan Kiernan, and Dwight Robinette

July 1, 2018 All In with Pauline Hawkins The cast of Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat, Corinne Tork (the Narrator), Ryan Kiernan (Levi and the Butler), and Dwight Robinette (Judah) talk about this amazing, funny, emotional, and definitely entertaining musical. They also talk about the next shows they will be in this summer. ThreeContinue reading “Episode 56: Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat with Corinne Tork, Ryan Kiernan, and Dwight Robinette”

Episode 55: The Burnt Sunset with Chris Ledoux

June 24, 2018 All In with Pauline Hawkins Chris Ledoux is a Portsmouth resident, an engineer, owner of Seascape Landscape, and now, a published author. The Burnt Sunset was just released June 21 and is a post-apocalyptic novel, featuring Chris’s sketches and lyrics. Chris talks about an accident that changed his life, his son’s boutContinue reading “Episode 55: The Burnt Sunset with Chris Ledoux”

Episode 54: An Artist’s Journey with Sarah Clawson

June 10, 2018 All In with Pauline Hawkins Sarah Clawson is a former student who is forging her own path as an artist and small business owner. She specializes in ceramics and teaches at Firefly Pottery in Portsmouth. She talks about her artist’s journey, going against the norm, the relationship between artists, empathy, and depressionContinue reading “Episode 54: An Artist’s Journey with Sarah Clawson”

Episode 53: A Year of Saying Yes with Jamie Jenson

May 27, 2018 All In with Pauline Hawkins Jamie Jenson decided to change her course after years of teaching and a life-changing event with a year of saying “Yes!” One of those yeses was pursuing a childhood dream of becoming a journalist. She recently graduated from the S.I. Newhouse School of Public Communications at SyracuseContinue reading “Episode 53: A Year of Saying Yes with Jamie Jenson”

Episode 52: Writer, Lawyer, Singer with David Hanrahan

May 22, 2018 All In with Pauline Hawkins David Hanrahan returns to the show to talk about his latest novel, A Deadly Recollection, a brutally suspenseful and riveting foray into the connection between Boston organized crime, the syndicates of Brooklyn and the legal communities who try to keep them at bay. David is a veteranContinue reading “Episode 52: Writer, Lawyer, Singer with David Hanrahan”

Episode 50: Being a Publicist with Wendie Appel

May 1, 2018 All In with Pauline Hawkins Wendie Appel is a professional publicist with over 20 years of business and public relations experience on both the west and east coasts, specializing in promoting artists, authors, entrepreneurs, mid-sized businesses and non-profit organizations. She is currently running two businesses: Spotlight Publicity and Purple Finch Press. WendieContinue reading “Episode 50: Being a Publicist with Wendie Appel”

Episode 49: Card Designs with Courtney Daniel

April 24, 2018 All In with Pauline Hawkins Courtney Daniel is a client relations expert and a nationally recognized award-winning business owner. She specializes in card designs and hand-written thank you notes with C. Daniel Designs. She works with elite professionals and has worked with top name celebrities in the industry. Courtney talks about herContinue reading “Episode 49: Card Designs with Courtney Daniel”

Episode 48: Teen Theatre with the Cast of Godspell

April 17, 2018 All In with Pauline Hawkins Fiona and Ariana Scharff, Isabella Bazata, and Marie Lane talk about being in the PDP production of Godspell, opening May 4th at the 3S Artspace. They also share about their experiences and how being in a Patrick Dorow Production has changed their lives. Song selections from BroadwayContinue reading “Episode 48: Teen Theatre with the Cast of Godspell”

Episode 47: Writing a TV Pilot with Stephanie Lazenby and Catherine Stewart

April 10, 2018 All In with Pauline Hawkins Stephanie Lazenby and Catherine Stewart have collaborated on a television pilot called “Domesticated.” They are now applying to competitions and working together to break into the industry. They talk about their journey as a team and as writers. Three songs that would be on the soundtrack ofContinue reading “Episode 47: Writing a TV Pilot with Stephanie Lazenby and Catherine Stewart”

Episode 46: Music and Arts with Rebecca Harrison and Katie Grazier

April 3, 2018 All In with Pauline Hawkins Rebecca Harrison and Katie Grazier are from Portsmouth Music and Arts Center or PMAC. On April 13 at Harbour Events, they have Spring Fever for the Arts Fundraiser Party, which raises funds for youth scholarships at PMAC. Katie and Rebecca talk about how PMAC was started andContinue reading “Episode 46: Music and Arts with Rebecca Harrison and Katie Grazier”

Episode 45: Compassion Fatigue with Roclyn Porter

March 27, 2018 All In with Pauline Hawkins Roclyn Porter, founder of Family Patch Network, talks about her work with emergency responders, teens and tweens, and how to take care of yourself if you are experiencing compassion fatigue. Three songs that would be on the soundtrack of her life: 1st song: “Under Pressure” by QueenContinue reading “Episode 45: Compassion Fatigue with Roclyn Porter”

Episode 44: Life of a Rap Artist with Michael Gene Dionne a.k.a. Eyenine

March 20, 2018 All In with Pauline Hawkins Michael Gene Dionne a.k.a Eyenine is an American hip hop recording artist from Dover, New Hampshire. He began writing and recording music at the age of 16 and touring the country in his 20s. He helped found an upstart recording label called Flyrock Records which released multipleContinue reading “Episode 44: Life of a Rap Artist with Michael Gene Dionne a.k.a. Eyenine”

Episode 43: Love the World Through Performance with Sophie Grimm

March 13, 2018 All In with Pauline Hawkins Sophie Grimm, who stars as Mama Rose in Patrick Dorow’s Production of Gypsy, talks about the right attitude to have in this business, her debut with PDP, and what the future holds for her. Sophie is from a family of performers, on stage since she was born,Continue reading “Episode 43: Love the World Through Performance with Sophie Grimm”

Episode 42: UNH Lecturers with Sarah Hirsch and Cindy Pulkkinen

March 6, 2018 All In with Pauline Hawkins Sarah Hirsch and Cindy Pulkkinen are two of the 17 UNH lecturers who received non-renewal notices by mail in January. Everything about it was mishandled. Sarah and Cindy have dedicated much of their lives to UNH and their students. Once a month, I like to discuss issuesContinue reading “Episode 42: UNH Lecturers with Sarah Hirsch and Cindy Pulkkinen”

Episode 40: The George North Manuscript with Dennis McCarthy

February 20, 2018 All In with Pauline Hawkins Dennis McCarthy talks about his new book, A Brief Discourse of Rebellion & Rebels by George North: A Newly Uncovered Manuscript Source for Shakespeare’s Plays, a book he coauthored with June Schleuter. Dennis made the front page of the New York Times with the release of hisContinue reading “Episode 40: The George North Manuscript with Dennis McCarthy”

Episode 38: Shelter: A One Billion Rising Event with Sarah Duclos, Catherine Stewart, and Clarice Perryman

February 6, 2018 All In with Pauline Hawkins Sarah Duclos, artistic director, Catherine Stewart, co-director and writer, and Clarice Perryman, cast member and dancer join me on All In to talk about “SHELTER: A One Billion Rising Event.” SHELTER depicts the history of women seeking refuge, the emergence of shelters in the 1970s and whereContinue reading “Episode 38: Shelter: A One Billion Rising Event with Sarah Duclos, Catherine Stewart, and Clarice Perryman”

Episode 37: Self-Directed Learners with Madison Person, Jack Tykodi, and Diane Murphy

January 30, 2018 All In with Pauline Hawkins Madison Person, Jack Tykodi, and Diane Murphy talk about self-directed learning and the BigFish Learning Community in Dover. Madison and Jack talk about why they joined the self-directed education movement and how they are taking charge of their own learning. Three songs that would be on theContinue reading “Episode 37: Self-Directed Learners with Madison Person, Jack Tykodi, and Diane Murphy”

Episode 35: Resolve 2018 with Lisa Cote and Seth Waleryszak

January 16, 2018 All In with Pauline Hawkins Lisa Cote and Seth Waleryszak join me on All In to talk about the Resolve 2018: Building An Agenda for Change conference. Lisa is an environmental scientist and environmental and women’s rights activist, and Seth is an attorney, community activist, spoken-word poet, and the Minister of UnityContinue reading “Episode 35: Resolve 2018 with Lisa Cote and Seth Waleryszak”

Episode 33: Making a Film with the Cast and Crew of The Fall of Terror

December 26, 2017 All In with Pauline Hawkins Nick Tavares, Emma Bowen, Ian Hawkins, Griffin McCarthy, Lori McCarthy, Chase Lancaster, and Mark Bowen talk about their various roles in the production of the short film “The Fall of Terror” they worked on during Thanksgiving break. Song list: “Til Kingdom Come” by Coldplay (Ian); “Imagine” byContinue reading “Episode 33: Making a Film with the Cast and Crew of The Fall of Terror”

Episode 32: Higher Education with Molly Campbell, Catherine Moran, and Larry Beemer

December 19, 2017 All In with Pauline Hawkins Molly Campbell, Catherine Moran, and Larry Beemer, Lecturers at UNH, talk about some of the issues with higher education. Some of the topics we discuss are the “adjunctification” of higher education and the growth of the use of contingent faculty, the workload and working conditions of theContinue reading “Episode 32: Higher Education with Molly Campbell, Catherine Moran, and Larry Beemer”

Episode 30: Home for the Holidays with Joe Mello, Sarah Duclos, and Kayla Gallerani

December 5, 2017 All In with Pauline Hawkins Joe Meallo, Sarah Duclos, and Kayla Gallerani joined me on All In with Pauline Hawkins to talk about “Home for the Holidays” the upcoming show with Patrick Dorow Productions, their favorite Christmas music, and their journey in musical theatre. It was a fun show filled with laughterContinue reading “Episode 30: Home for the Holidays with Joe Mello, Sarah Duclos, and Kayla Gallerani”

Episode 29: Nonviolent Communication with Peggy Smith

November 28, 2017 All In with Pauline Hawkins Peggy Smith, Diane Murphy, and I talk about nonviolent communication and how we can improve our thoughts and communication style so that we are empathic and compassionate with the people in our lives. Peggy is the founder of Open Communication and Clarity Services, and Diane is theContinue reading “Episode 29: Nonviolent Communication with Peggy Smith”

Episode 27: Painting Around the Country with Scott David Chase

November 14, 2017All In with Pauline Hawkins Scott David Chase joins me to discuss his literal artist’s journey across the country, painting in 48 of the 50 states. He talks about his travels with Zoe (his rescue dog) and the artists he visited and painted with on his literal and figurative creative journey. Three songsContinue reading “Episode 27: Painting Around the Country with Scott David Chase”

Episode 25: The Purpose of Education with Diane Murphy

October 24, 2017 All In with Pauline Hawkins On the topic of rethinking education, Diane Murphy from BigFish Learning Community (https://www.bigfishnh.org/) joins me again to talk about the purpose of education. We listened to a segment of Blake Boles “What does it mean to be educated?” (https://www.self-directed.org/tp/what-does-it-mean-to-be-educated/), I read my resignation letter (https://paulinehawkins.com/2014/04/07/my-resignation-letter/), we listenedContinue reading “Episode 25: The Purpose of Education with Diane Murphy”

Episode 23: Seeing the Silver Lining with Ashley Mosher

October 13, 2017 All In with Pauline Hawkins In this special broadcast of All In with Pauline Hawkins, Ashley Mosher talks about the New Hampshire Film Festival, her short film Back to Camp, and her amazing life story that helped her entered the film making business. “Back to Camp” is an honest, moving, and relevantContinue reading “Episode 23: Seeing the Silver Lining with Ashley Mosher”

Episode 22: A Christmas Carol with Scott Severance

October 10, 2017 All In with Pauline Hawkins Scott Severance talks about getting ready to tour the country with a company of 19 people, performing his re-adaptation of A Christmas Carol. This is the second year he will be touring with his company, PerSeverance Productions LLC.Three songs they would be on the soundtrack of hisContinue reading “Episode 22: A Christmas Carol with Scott Severance”

Story Time: For I Am Yours

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One of many stories

Thursday, March 12: When I woke up Thursday morning, I decided to self-isolate. I woke up with a heaviness in my chest, like someone was sitting on it. I also had a sore throat and a dry cough. I checked my temperature and it was normal. I have not been overseas and have not knowingly been in contact with anyone who could have the virus. Regardless, I decided to stay home.

I worried about my co-workers and students. Even if I didn’t have the virus, adding my weird symptoms to the mix would not be good. I emailed my bosses at GBCC and told them I would not be coming in, but I was available for online tutoring and would create an assignment for my students.

Even though Ian had and continues to have zero symptoms, I figured he’d been exposed to whatever I have and didn’t want to be sorry in a few days, so I called Ian’s school to say he was staying home as well.

Even though my chest hurt, I decided to go for a 3-mile walk. I figured the fresh air would do me good and working out is one of the many ways I take care of myself. Obviously, going to the fitness center was out of the question. Yes, I had chest pains, but I wanted to see if my lungs were compromised. At the end of the walk, I didn’t have labored breathing. It relaxed my anxieties.

Making sure I was careful with food prep, I made healthy meals for us, took vitamins, gargled, washed my hands constantly, and drank lots of fluids. By Thursday night I had a low-grade fever, about 99.5. I was a little nervous but knew there were several other possibilities for my symptoms.

Friday, March 13: I woke up a little achy, and my fever had gone up to 100.1. I repeated my routine from the day before, but since it was raining, I couldn’t go for a long walk. I worked from home but felt tired and foggy. I took my temperature again: 101. I was conflicted about it, but I told my kids about the fever. I hate worrying them when there’s nothing they can do.

Nicole’s response was “Call the doctor.”

My response, “I don’t have health insurance.” I assured her that I was still breathing fine. And told her I couldn’t afford a doctor or urgent care visit, especially if they were just going to tell me, “Go home, drink plenty of fluids, and rest.”

“But, Mom. They have to test you. At least see if you have strep. You’ll need antibiotics if you do.”

So, I called a few urgent care places: $140, at minimum just to be seen. If they do a strep test it goes up from there, with a $250 maximum charge. It was an option, but a last resort. I decided to wait. Besides, I was told they didn’t do Covid-19 tests there. I decided to wait to see if things got worse.

Later that day, the sun came out briefly. I went out for a mile walk. I was tired, but it felt good. Back inside, I relaxed and watched a few shows. I took my temperature again, and it was gone. But the heaviness in my chest and sore throat were still present. I told my kids my fever was gone.

Before bed, my symptoms started up again, so I took my temperature. 102. I didn’t tell anyone. I was too worried to share—backwards thinking for sure—but speaking it out loud would make it scarier. I didn’t feel any worse. I could still breathe fine. I made some tea with a little bit of honey and whiskey (hey–it’s worked before) and went to bed.

Saturday, March 14: I woke up and felt completely different. No fever. The heaviness in my chest was almost gone. No sore throat. I was immediately thankful I didn’t waste my money on an urgent care visit. I felt good…

…until a few hours later. I started feeling tired and my chest and throat began to hurt again. I took my temperature. Back to a low-grade fever 99.8. The rest of the weekend went the same way: Brief moments of low pain and no fever and then more pronounced pain and low-grade fever.

Monday, March 16: I woke up with a severe headache. The last time I felt this kind of pain was when I had pneumonia and pleurisy. That worried me, but again, I had no fever. I decided to call my doctor—a doctor I hadn’t seen in over a year because I no longer had health insurance. I had no idea what would happen once they found out I was no longer insured, but I hoped that maybe they would test me anyway. Besides, I heard that the tests would be made widely available by Monday—and maybe free.

I was wrongly optimistic. They told me I couldn’t get tested because 1) my symptoms were not that bad, 2) I hadn’t been to any of the hot spots in or out of this country, and 3) I hadn’t been in contact with anyone who has it.

I asked her how any of us were going to know who has the virus if no one is being tested unless they had been in contact with someone who has it?

She told me to call the CDC. I’m sure she was only following orders. I don’t blame her, but I do blame the higher-ups. Without accurate counts, people have been given a false sense of security.

She assured me that I could, however, be tested for strep or a regular flu. I asked how much that would cost. She said someone would get back to me. So far, no one has.

Tuesday-Friday, March 17-20: Since then, I’ve gone through similar cycles: Feeling better followed by chest pains and low-grade fever. As a matter of fact, I’m running a low-grade fever as I write this.

Why health insurance matters

Two weeks ago, health insurance was a prominent topic among citizens and potential candidates. Now, and rightly so, our attention is turned to other acute Covid-19 concerns, but we must not forget that a major underlying issue in our ability to handle these concerns is insurance.

If I had health insurance, I know I would have gone to the doctor immediately, but without it, even a $250 bill is not something I can afford. I work three part-time jobs, all of which are hourly—no sick leave, no guaranteed salary. To add to it, a few weeks ago, I took four days off to see my mom in upstate NY, which means I didn’t log any hours during that four-day period. In addition, I spent money on a hotel, food, and gas to be there. I was already set back from that trip and falling behind on my bills.

I know, without a doubt, that my daughters or friends would help me out financially if I asked. But contrary to the stereotype of those who are fighting for universal healthcare, I am not a person who asks for handouts. I could never take money from anyone if I wasn’t sure I could pay it back.

I actually had state health insurance for a few years while I got back on my feet after a divorce and a move across the country. As soon as I made too much money, the insurance went away. Thankfully, Ian is still covered, but I’m not sure for how much longer. If I continue to make more money, I’ll reach a point when Ian won’t qualify for coverage, but I won’t be making enough to buy the same kind of quality benefits.

The other thing that struck me this week is that this is the first time I’ve actually stayed home when I was feeling sick. I usually push through. We need to be strong, right? We can’t inconvenience others by calling in sick, right? Also, as a teacher, it’s so hard to miss a day. It’s always been easier to go to work than to create lesson plans for a sub when the illness is minor. I’ve also encountered ridiculous mind-sets from some of my superiors. Last year while teaching on a military base, I had a supervisor tell me to either come in to teach my adult students or lose my job. I had the flu—a temp of 103 with body aches. I needed the job, so I went to work. When did it become noble to spread our germs? When did our health become a non-issue when “work” had to be done?

I wonder if this is why universal healthcare fills people with such anger. These people say healthcare is not a right—it is something you must earn. Is it because we’ve been taught that we’re not supposed to feel pain if we’re real Americans? Is it some type of culturally conditioned response of “tough Americans don’t get sick”? And if we do feel pain, then we must pay for the right to see a doctor about it; otherwise, we need to suck it up so as not to put a strain on the system. Anyone who needs help must be a bottom-feeder, right?

No longer a “bottom-feeder,” but also not making enough to “earn” healthcare leaves me in this vulnerable place. I’m a productive member of society. I’m a teacher who devotes much of her time to helping students follow their dreams; a writer who creates stories to improve relationships; a mother and a friend who would give her last dollar to someone in need; yet because I don’t make enough money, my health is not a priority in America. Someday, if I make enough money or get a job with benefits, then and only then, will I be worthy of healthcare in this country.

It is so different in other countries. People love to share on social media that their “brother’s friend has a cousin who lives in Canada who hates the socialized healthcare system.”

I actually have a cousin who lives in Toronto. We’ve been talking online this week, and she said a few things that are important to share—with her permission. I know it may not be how all Canadians feel, but I still thought it was valuable as another perspective.

When I told her my symptoms, she asked if I was going to get tested for Covid-19. When I told her that I wasn’t allowed to get tested, she couldn’t believe it. People who have symptoms are getting tested in Canada—no other criteria needed. Then she asked, “Is it true they are charging for the test? We do it for free here. You would think with something like this, they would do free testing.”

“You would think,” I responded. “Or at least test people who have symptoms no matter how mild so that they understand how big the problem is.” (The virus test might end up being free, but your doctor’s “visit” won’t be, and they are doing flu tests to rule it out before administering the virus test. Those other tests won’t be free.)

I wanted to know how she felt about her healthcare system. “Do you hate it? Do people wish they lived here for our healthcare system?” I asked.

“I’ve never heard anyone say they want to live in the States for your healthcare. No way! Our healthcare is for everyone, and I mean EVERYONE. The only reason I’ve heard of people wanting to go to the States is for MRIs and things like that. The wait here is so long… you can wait weeks sometimes for that or just to see a specialist.”

That is one of the arguments people use here, but truth be told, the wait here isn’t much better. I’ve never needed an MRI, and I don’t know too many people who need MRIs for routine healthcare. My son needed MRIs when he was battling cancer, which was part of his diagnosis and treatment. However, I did need to see a specialist when I had health insurance in Colorado. I had to wait a few weeks to be seen—no different—except that I had to pay for that visit with a copay on top of what I paid for health insurance, which was about $800/month.

My story matters

It is dangerous to look at any one story and think it is the complete story (which reminds me of this great TED Talk from Chimamanda Ngozi Adichie https://youtu.be/D9Ihs241zeg), but if you can think about healthcare from my perspective, from my cousin’s perspective and add it to your own stories (not the political talking points), you’ll be closer to understanding the importance of universal healthcare.

Here’s a great article that supports some of my testing concerns: https://www.wired.com/story/coronavirus-interview-larry-brilliant-smallpox-epidemiologist/

Episode 116: Aging Gracefully with Alexandra Chan and Courtney Daniel

March 8, 2020

All In with Pauline Hawkins

For International Women’s Day, Alexandra Chan and Courtney Daniel return to the show to join me in conversation about aging, letting go, nurturing your inner child, self-healing, raising boys, moving on, and saying no.

Three songs that we brought to help us talk about our journey: 1st song: “Watching the Wheels” by John Lennon (Alexka); 2nd song: “Confidently Lost” by Sabrina Claudio (Courtney); and 3rd song: “Please, please, please” by Marc Broussard (Pauline).

Courtney: Sign up for Cards and Conversation at WSCA Friday, April 3 from 6-8 pm at https://www.courtneydaniel.com/new-events/cards-and-conversation-with-jen-scumaci

Alexka: Find out more about her photography at http://www.alexandrachan.com/  her art at https://www.risingphoenixarts.com/ and her writing at https://www.chanspekingkitchen.com/

Pauline: Get a signed copy of my books at the New England Author Expo, April 19 from 2-6 at Cisco Brewers. Find out more at https://newenglandauthorsexpo.com/

Become a Patron at Patreon.com to support my podcast! https://www.patreon.com/paulinehawkins

Episode 115: Moments with Trevor Gatcomb and Aly Aramento

March 1, 2020

All In with Pauline Hawkins

Trevor Gatcomb and Aly Aramento join me to talk about their directorial debut with Dive In Productions of the contemporary song cycle Moments, written and composed by Nathan Schwartzberg. They talk about the history of Moments and what it looks like now, the moments that have impacted them, what’s next, and what it means to them to go all in.

They brought three songs from Moments to share with us: 1st song: “Moments”; 2nd song: “Half Mast”; and 3rd song of soundtrack: “NYC”

To find out more about this show and Dive In Productions, go to https://www.diveinproductions.com/

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Episode 114: My Way with RW Martin

February 16, 2020

All In with Pauline Hawkins

R.W. Martin has been in the entertainment industry for over 30 years. Whether it’s through film, television, video, stage, or his writing, RW’s goal is to always leave a lasting impression.

RW talks about his journey in the entertainment industry, does a some amazing impersonations, performs one of his songs, and talks about what it means “to go all in.”

Three songs that would be on the soundtrack of his life: 1st song: “My Way” by Elvis; 2nd song: “If I Can Dream” by Elvis; and 3rd song: “These are the days of our live” by Queen.

To contact RW, go to: https://officialrwmartin.wixsite.com/vtactor007

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Episode 113: Fear, Freedom, and Improv with Joanne Brokaw

January 26, 2020

All In with Pauline Hawkins

Joanne Brokaw is an award-winning writer, improvisor, and the author of two books: What the Dog Said, and other adventures in everyday life, and most recently, Suddenly Stardust: A memoir (of sorts) about fear, freedom & improv. Despite her list of creative accomplishments, for most of her career she’s been a chronic ‘fraidy cat with a terminal case of procrastination. Then she discovered improvisational comedy. Now she leads workshops, performs regularly with her improv and comedy teams, and tries to “Yes, And” life’s curveballs.

Joanne talks about her journey into improv, the foundations of improv and how they can apply to your life, how fear can stop you from pursuing your purpose, and the freedom that comes from learning how to wrangle fear.

Three songs that would be on the soundtrack of her life: 1st song: “(Theme From) The Monkees”; 2nd song: “Boogie Shoes” by KC and the Sunshine Band; and 3rd song: “Hand in My Pocket” by Alanis Morissette.

To contact Joanne, go to www.joannebrokaw.com

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Episode 112: The Next Right Thing with Amanda Woods

January 12, 2020

All In with Pauline Hawkins

Amanda Woods joins me again to talk about her children’s books: The Robot and the Ballerina and I love You to Planet Peas and Carrots; running the marketing and business end of Wiggly Bridge Distillery; the foundation she is starting with self-publishing; and the work she does with York Region Chamber of Commerce. She also shares about some of the struggles she had to overcome to get to where she is now and doing the next right thing.

Three songs that would be on the soundtrack of her life: 1st song: “Bones” by Maren Morris; 2nd song: “The Next Right Thing” by Kristen Bell from Frozen II; and 3rd song of soundtrack: “Memories” by Maroon 5.

Contact Amanda through her facebook page: https://www.facebook.com/authoramandawoods/

Or at www.amandamariewoods.com

For more information about Wiggly Bridge Distillery, go to http://wigglybridgedistillery.com/

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2020 Going All In Diary: Family Goals Day 11

One of my goals for the new year is to plan at least one day a month when Ian and I get outside and take a walk or enjoy nature in some way. Today was the perfect day to accomplish this goal for January.

We found fun signs we never would have seen driving by (seals come up on this beach?). We smiled and said hi to people along the path (not everyone smiled or said hi back, but I told Ian it didn’t matter how other people treated us, only how we treated others). We made friends with amazing dogs. But mostly, we enjoyed the wind, the ocean spray, the sun, the waves, and the nature walk with each other.

Ian: “Why do houses like this exist?”
3 miles total: 1.5 out and back

For more about goal setting, listen to https://paulinehawkins.com/2020/01/05/episode-111-going-all-in-in-2020-with-molly-campbell/

A book for everyone

I’ve been rereading Uncommon Core in preparation for planning out my next book, and I have to tell you, it’s giving me the feels. I’ve cried through every chapter, remembering the connection I had with my students and the lessons we learned from each other.

In some ways, it’s a hard book to market because the primary audience is parents, but the parents who need it the most might not know they need it. It’s also like a memoir, filled with stories from my high school teaching days, so teachers can read it for inspiration or to help them remember why they became teachers in the first place. The primary message is about core skills students need to be successful in school and beyond, so students can read it as a self-help book.

Uncommon Core does not bash or help people navigate Common Core standards and teaching, but it is a book that talks about what is important and seems to be uncommon nowadays.

So, if you or someone you know could benefit from reading a book like this, let me know. I think it’s worth it 🙂