Ian Knows Pain

Besides the obvious struggles, Ian’s Cancer treatments three years ago have created other problems for him now. The radiation machine that zapped the bad cells in his brain also deteriorated Ian’s gums and teeth. Two years after his treatments, our dentist told us Ian needed to get eight caps on his molars. The two-hour procedureContinue reading “Ian Knows Pain”

Positively—Scared

I feel like a failure. I write about staying optimistic through whatever life throws at me, yet I’m scared of that very possibility. Ian recently had an MRI that came back clear, thankfully, but it was because of my fears that he had one last week instead of next month. Two nights in a rowContinue reading “Positively—Scared”

…the Rest of the Story.

April 30, 2009. Another anniversary that we won’t celebrate. Another day filled with painful memories. Unlike the day we found the tumor, my memories of this day are clouded by tears. I remember segments of the day and bits of dialog, but mostly I remember tears: Ian’s tears, my tears, Dave’s tears; Nicole, Carol Linn,Continue reading “…the Rest of the Story.”

Three Years Ago Today…

Today is our anniversary. Three years ago our lives changed forever, but there won’t be a celebration today. We won’t have a cake or a special dinner. As a matter of fact, it’s just a normal Saturday for our family. Ian is playing Wii. Dave and I are doing laundry. If anyone looked in ourContinue reading “Three Years Ago Today…”

Did You Know I Had Cancer?

What used to go over Ian’s head at four-years-old is resonating with him at seven. We worked very hard at protecting him from the negative talk that surrounds Cancer during his treatments (Heart of a Hero), and we’ve still never said Cancer and death in the same sentence all these years later. We call itContinue reading “Did You Know I Had Cancer?”

My First Sleepover

I have a guest writer for this post, my son Ian. He loved that I wrote about his spider-scare, so he wanted to write a story himself. He chose to write about his first sleepover, which is perfect since I was going to write about it anyway. Waiting for the right moment to let goContinue reading “My First Sleepover”

32 Blessings and Blessing #1: Ian Is Alive and Well

Blessings To say my life has been difficult the last month is an understatement. In early December I was humming a sweet tune while I traveled along the path of my dream life; then, I was yanked out of my reverie and forced to see a different reality, one filled with lies, betrayals, and pain.Continue reading “32 Blessings and Blessing #1: Ian Is Alive and Well”